Slow to start

Today is the first day of my blog and I'm not really sure what to say. I have never done an online journal and I've always thought, "who in the world would want to read what I have to say?" But, with my impending 'journey' to the sandbox just around the corner, I thought it might be a great way to keep track of my thoughts and feelings without having to tote a pen/paper with me. Also, much more private. I have been reading a couple of war bloggers' posts and I must say I have become completely addicted to them. They can be raw and uncensored and right in the moment. I am such a sucker for war and military stuff that these blogs are right up my alley. I'm not sure if anyone will ever read my blog other than me, but just in case I will refrain from posting anything that might get me into trouble, IE-military stuff.
Well, I got an email from my dad the other day and he's back to his old crappy attitude of "I'm the victim" again. It's so annoying that he plays that card when things start going in a direction that HE doesn't like. He's a brat and there really isn't any nicer way to put it. I could come up with worse, but I will refrain. I talked with mom about it for awhile and I have decided that relationship with dad is not a healthy one and will not become a healthy one so I don't think I'm going to continue to try. We just don't get each other and there really isn't any point in trying any longer. We have not been an active part of each other's lives for so many years, that we really have no clue about the other and he seems to always want to live in the past and not move forward. That's quick sand if you ask me. So, I'm moving on.
Christmas is just around the corner now and my mom still doesn't have a job. I'm worried for her. I know she has a lot of skills and would be a great addition to any job, but people don't want to give her a chance because of her age. I know the Lord will provide for her when it's HIS time, but it's very scary and stressful knowing that her unemployment money will stop the end of January and the economy is really bad right now. I just pray every night that HE will provide a job for her. I know HE will when it's right, I just wish HE would hurry up. :o)
Well, I think that's it for this first post. That wasn't so bad! More to come in the days ahead.

TTFN