Family

Well, I have received my orders...finally. I'm heading to the sand, but no ultimate duty station listed yet. I have mixed emotions right now. I'm excited to go, but now that it's really here, I'm getting a little scared. Going through the online courses is a little unnerving. I guess I really haven't grasped the magnitude of the journey I am about to embark on.

I received a card in the mail today from an aunt that I have not spoken to in many, many, many years. I'm assuming my dad gave her my address.....without asking me if it would be alright of course. But, that would be the respectable thing to do and I have learned, he doesn't give a rats ass about respecting me. He's self-centered and he drives me nuts. I will not write my aunt back. I feel that they have had lots of chances over the years to contact me and have not, but I'm sure I'll be the bad guy with them. I'm used to that by now. Oh well, all I can do is rant about it and move on. These people aren't my 'family' they are just some people I'm related to by blood. Whooppee. My dad sent me some sort of package for Christmas or my birthday or something. Once again trying to be the 'better' person so that when I don't reciprocate, I will be the shitty one and he will be the hero for 'going the extra mile'. Please, give me a break!! I'm not going to even open the package and just return it to sender...along with the money that he sent me for my birthday. I can't be bought and that's what he's trying to do. Jerk!

Tonight we had our Christmas party at work. It was a lot of fun!! It was nice to just go out and get away from work and laugh and talk. These people are great. As much as I bitch about this or that at work...these people are a great group of people to work with. I will really miss them all when I leave.

Not much in the writing mood tonight after the card. I just needed a place to vent.