There is finally a glimmer of hope sprouting through. The meds are making me feel MUCH better. I think there is a normal person in here somewhere trying to get back out. Anyway, I have had some positive things starting to happen. I've gotten some monkeys off of my back and I can let a huge sigh of relief go now. I see the stresses I was experiencing last week starting to melt away. I'm starting to find peace again. This is such a great feeling. I'm still going to keep my appt. at the VA, because I think talking about it and letting it go will be a huge step on the road to getting my life back.
My contract is up next May, and I am really unsure about what I'm going to do. I like having the military as a safety net in case the "real" world doesn't provide income for me, but part of me just wants to walk away and not look back. I feel I have fulfilled my duty to myself and to my country. I think I can walk away with my head held high. But, I'm not going to make this decision overnight nor in the present time. Just something to be thinking about.
I just wanted to let everyone know that I'm ok and I'm getting much better. Thanks to you all for the support you have shown me once again!!!!!!!
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Oh the stay or go debate. We have that every few years around here! If you do leave navy life I wouldn't think of it as walking away, like you said, you've done your duty, you've served your country and fulfilled your commitment. And now your moving on to something else. And if you stay who knows what's in store! Really, who ever does in the military.
So glad to hear your doing better. I think your right its a good idea to keep your apt with the VA but thank god for meds. What did the world do before them?! Flyboy had to take valium after his shoulder surgery to relax his muscles so it could repair and I swear those were the most peaceful days. : )
so glad to hear things are going better for you. im on zoloft for depression and without it id be a totally zombie! they literally have given me my life back so im THRILLED for you that yours are working!!
As for weather to stay or go. my mom has ALWAYS told me that if you dont know the answer to something, dont make any descion. sit on it and one day you will wake up and just know what to do! its worked for me EVERY time! good luck!
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